depressed. acquainted about hypochondria much closely. "what if person suffers from hypochondria of hypochondria..?" asks her.. thats a very nice paradox. its hard these times sometimes such as these when i press me. yes, i enjoy my face and all other things.. but there is something of me thats irritatable. yeah. its this that irritates me: the very fact that i can get irritated! hah! say it again?! yes "how can i get irritated?!" no. i may be amusing myself even now. but that might not be the true thing in my id. yes unconscious. but the truth is i feel something after a sometime. some nadaic thing. God! i amuse myself by irritating me. telling to myself that i cant get irritated no matter what and thus pull me into irrirtation. pull! goD! what a pull it was. i can still remember it! God! i dont think its true. may be.. these are the saddest lines i can write.. or the happiest. i no longer wanna call this blog Dreams within a dream..
i wanna call it free assosiations. may be i shall rename it if i feel normal. or rename it as that cause i wanna irritate myself. No! i am not so deterministic. yes. i am deterministic about pontificating myself. thats an amazing thing to do. well its a pleasurable thing. i wanna argue with rene Descartes. you say , i think, therefore i exist. sorry sir! i'd say. you think that you exist just because you exist and your brain exists and you have no other option but to not not think. what do you say, sir? yeah.. ok you say you give up.!?! but i dont cause i ve already given up. haha.. only if someone knows to psychoalize they 'd never know what this means. means..! i wanna see movies. !i wanna see. now. here and now..
i wanna type more.
my depression ends here!